tired is the word to describe the week. today i actually went back to sleep after my breakfast instead of changing into my clothes to go school and meet my group for project. haha! in the end i was late and i didn't really discuss work cause i need to find mr jalal for shack thing.
wah. mr jalal rocks! i told him i got a bad news for him and he ask me what was it. i told him about the shack thing and he tell me to relax, he will solve it for me. immediately he ask me take the canoeing club file out for him and he call mr lim. woot! thanks so much mr jalal. i thought i would end up getting a scolding from him but nahz, phew... *grins*
splitted work for ooad project cause it would be much more faster this way. hope next week meet up one more time again to tie everything up and that will be it.
ngee ann poly homepage change pictures already. woot! eugene (canoeing club alumni) appearing on the homepage. i told shi hua about it and she say wow, how nice if she can appear on the homepage also. haha.
the guy on the top right wearing blue rashguard is Eugene!
a funny thing happened during during database practical. meiteng sit the chair until crack. muahaha!!! me and karen so bad, went to change back the broken chair for her to sit again when she went out to reply a call.
went down tanjong pagar cause m5 concept just move over. wah. tinybox music school (kelly poon's school) is like over there also. great! who knows next time i learn singing can drop by m5 concept after my school. haha. *dreaming*
next saturday i will be working for m5 concept instead of popular. hehe. that's my first assignment. hope it'll be fun. heard that it's promoting a bank. the bank so rich? go employ models to help promote their bank. pengz.
--- 人与人之间的相处就不能那么的简单, 纯真吗? ---
my music my style
9:32 PM
Wednesday, June 28, 2006
database project meeting in the morning. heez. i'm late for it. luckily it's not lesson so i can be late.
did a bit of it and chatted for the remaining time. suddenly we got so much to chat about. wahaha! so talkative. yu bing didn't come school cause she having high fever. orh. bad weather nowadays. drink more water people!
networking practical seems so easy and manageable today. maybe it's because i'm starting to be more attentive in class. lolx.
training at night was so-so. sianz. i did pull up until my right arm start to pain again. in the end i couldn't do much of gym. sad. maybe i'm too anxious to do gym, didn't really let my arm rest.
lots of things to be done by this week. i feel so super duper busy. why must projects came crashing in all at one go? yucks!
shi hua is in love with this song so much that she ask zhi hao to on his laptop louder while we were having lunch at canteen 2. so funny! macham promoting for fan yi chen new album. she say she's going to learn this song and k it. aww. too bad i can't reach that high. that time k until halfway i change song. muahaha.
notice the familarity in this song's tune? some parts of the tune is actually copied from "i believe", his last album.
范逸臣 - Love Story
my music my style
11:54 PM
Tuesday, June 27, 2006
this morning i was damm late for school, well not for lessons but meeting up my group to do database project. my mum saw me walking damm fast to catch bus and she was on the way home so she horn me and fetch me to bus 74 bus stop. heez. thanks mum. reach school early but in the end didn't do project cause meiteng wake up at 10am when we are like meeting 10am do project. pengz!
ooad (java) assigment out! heard database and bioinfomatics will came crashing in next week. argh! i think i'll be busy chiong-ing them starting from this week since the weightage is so high.
ooad papers not back yet. eek! he owe us 2 papers since like so long ago? don't tell me he want to accumulate more and gave us a heavy blow at one go? yucks.
well, networking paper back. argh. 4 more marks to pass. damm. everytime common test fail networking paper. so unlucky. now i must chiong this module more than the rest to ensure i don't repeat it. sianz.
met up with my insurance agent to discuss about my saving plan thingy after school and yah, after that chatted awhile about my relationship. clemence told sharon (insurance agent) about what happened to me recently so yah. hmm, i could clearly see what's an adult thinking like when sharon talk to me about everything. she told me a lot of things which i would have never thought of. it's good things though. hmm, i thought through on the way back home and perhaps this song suits my mood and the things i want to say.
范逸臣 - 放生
--- 失去了就不要再去想它, 这样生命才会过的更精彩 ---
my music my style
9:45 PM
Monday, June 26, 2006
1st day of school after 2 weeks of break.
i'm still late for class today. well, at least within the 15 mins grace period. heez. actually i wake up quite early but as usual my vainess cause me to be late. i was thinking of what to wear to school and also slowly make my hair. heez.
met jaime up during my long 3 hours break in the library. he briefly told me what to expect for caps and i also clear quite a number of my doubts. thanks so much jaime! you are always the one who seems so clear minded about everything. he taught me how to read the tide table also. heez. although i still haven't really practice on my own reading it, but i guess i know how to read it already.
database 3 hours lesson. wee! i'm super duper DELIGHTED! i pass my database common test. i got a "C". phew. thank god the database book which i read and study myself was of great use. sianz. yubing say our mentor mrs nittia can change away the lecturer if we want to but until now also not yet meet us to tell us whether can or not. if only with a better lecturer, i wouldn't have to study myself until so 辛苦!
left 3 more papers to take back. *cross fingers*
bioinfomatics lecturer say our class only 1 A, 2 B and a lot of Ds. 2-3 failures. gosh. he even say other class so many As, only our class so horrible so he's thinking of moderating the marks. kaoz. ownself teach until like that then want to hide up his faults. he should be ashame that he being the module leader teach until his class do so badly. PUI! he seriously need a SELF REALITY CHECK (quoted from geraldine).
sprinters land training as night was sianz with so few people, maybe because a lot of them have projects and tests coming up. starting to push back myself with the normal weights but after doing a few station my right arm started to feel pain again so i stop. heez. took bus home alone cause alfred and clemence never come training today. aww. lonely i'm mr lonely...
enjoy the latest upcoming mv by jolin. it's her lux advertisement song. woo, white hair seems so pretty on her also. hehe.
蔡依林 - 玩美
--- 世上常常有预测不料的事情会发生, 只要勇敢的去面对, 明天将会是一个更好的一天! ---
my music my style
11:50 PM
Sunday, June 25, 2006
no sea training today for me cause my arm. sianz. i don't care! tomorrow i shall go back land training. heez.
went for my 2nd lesson on singing at m5 concept and wah, at first i was feeling a little regret why go afternoon slot cause got people sing together but after that, i felt so happy cause i get to know 2 new friends celest and isaac.
celest got those model look. wah! zul show her the pictures that she was filming for macdonald's advertisement. only her, a malay guy and a young didi got in. chey! well, she's good. she wanted to change all her modelling class to singing lessons but the model teacher don't let her do so. haha. of cause lah, she got the model look so don't waste.
isaac was scouted during a singing competition by william (boss) and he was one of the finalist during the competition. wah! you hear him sing you can WOW.
me and celest felt so newbie when sing together with him "分手快乐". anyway it was fun as he's not those ya ya papaya kind of people. so friendly! i feel like taking singing lessons at m5 concept but who's going to pay for my lesson fee. haha! nevermind. wait till i get rich one day or who knows my parents will suddenly agree to sponsor me go singing classes. lolx. hope i'm not dreaming.
now i'm left with 2 more lessons on modelling and my portfolio. wee! sounds so fun. heez.
--- back to school tomorrow. hope lessons isn't boring ---
my music my style
10:41 PM
24 June 2006 (Sat)
damm lots of people today! guess it's because tomorrow is the last day of 20% off promotion.
luckily i'm working last counter and eating 2pm slot. phew! during the peak period, i am happily eating while the other 2 counter busy cashiering. muahaha. i'm so bad. oops.
yesterday night i did push ups before i sleep and this morning while i was doing cashiering, i could feel the pain on my right arm when i pack the items, especially those thick stack of printing papers. haiz. who ask me so itchy hand went to test test whether my arm recover already or not.
i guess i'll have to miss training tomorrow cause i think i'm still not ready yet for physical exercise. *sighs*
guess i shall stop doing push ups or anything that will strain my arms for one day and see how it goes. i want to go back training!
heard from jeremy my shack got ants. argh! i feel so uneasy that my shack not well. it somehow affects me. shack not well, me also not feeling well. looks like i got a serious "jie pi" illness as what jiaying says. haha!
meow choo's turn to empty rubbish today but she refuse to cause she said she's always the one emptying. in the end maggie ask me to find people empty the rubbish so liwei and desmond accompany me.
stupid desmond posing at the tall "over the hedge" stand to be throw away. he's so act cute! *buay ta han*
had fun working clearing the rubbish today. desmond is always so hyperactive and full of craps. oh yah, maggie treated all staffs to herbal tea today. so nice of her cause it's the last 2 days of promotion and she know we all are working hard to serve the big number of customers.
--- i want my arm to recover as soon as possible... ---
my music my style
12:00 AM
Friday, June 23, 2006
i slept and slept practically the whole morning and afternoon. i felt so tired so i just lie on my bed and sleep. heez. i'm a pig i know but it has been long since i slack in bed for so long.
didn't go for land training cause my arm still hurts. i spring clean my room for a much more neater look! thanks to my mum cause she bought the coloured folder from popular for me to sort out my files.
caps hotel planning should start soon if not i would at a loss for friday's meeting. thank god i manage to get jaime to meet me up to tell me about how he go about doing caps golf. thanks jaime for your time!
working tomorrow again. sianz. hope i don't get call out to carry stuffs if not i will strongly protest cause i want my arm to heal! heez.
my music my style
11:20 PM
Thursday, June 22, 2006
no counter today cause got 3 cashiers. in the end i kanna ask to move text n assessement books under the table into the receiving room. at first i was thinking oh shit! sure become maid again but as the day go by, it's easy job. just got to wrap the books again if it's torn and label and check the books can already. lolx!
me slowly slacking inside receiving room with cai ting and my godma! so fun. don't need to put up with customers and maggie not working today. wahaha. it's my day! no wonder my hair texture so nice today also. it's just like straight and smooth. my godma ask me whether i cut hair is it and i say no lah. haha. good mood hair also behave good.
teng shien came down today to do housekeeping for stock visit and she pass this form telling gek choo that if this company come down deliver don't accept cause they never issure the purchase invoice or what and gek choo tell cai ting about it. in the end she say might as well stick on the wall if not nobody knows. after sticking up, she was saying about what teng shien told her when she pass her the paper and i suggested helping her write up.
i wrote "不要收货! 收了要吃下去..." and gek choo and cai ting laugh until GOODNESS! the whole receiving room was filled with 3 of our laughters and alfred came in and ask what happened. he then read out the words and laugh also. muahaha. so fun! well, that's what teng shien said mah. haha.
nice working inside. now i know why gek choo (my godma) everyday come work so happy. always telling jokes and laughing out loud inside.
sianz. my right arm which is kanna pulled while during gym yesterday seems to be getting worst. today i carry books can feel the strain on the arm. haiz! why so suay? injure right leg, not yet heal then now right arm. *sighz*
liwei told most of us something today which i felt a little reluctant to hear that but well, all the best to her.
--- 天地下没有不散的宴席. 不要难过因为你知道她将会过的比现在更快乐 ---
my music my style
11:41 PM
Wednesday, June 21, 2006
model casting today. it's like an audition whereby the company people come down and pick models which they are looking for to appear in either their runaway, advertisement, photoshoot cover etc.
my first time going for casting and today it's by macdonald company. WOW! heard from william (my boss) that it's a company that's very generous and rich and they are looking for models to appear in those plasma tv among all the outlets and also the brochure. sounds so OMG-ish! well, pray hard i get in although it seems so impossible cause when i went in, one of the woman said that i was so tall. hmm, maybe that's a disadvantage if take photos cause the rest of the models would look so short beside me. lolx!
went down to school after that to self train first with alfred cause we got caps hotel briefing at 5.30pm. sianz. i did bench press until i pulled my right arm. now it hurts so much. hope can recover soon if not i can't do most of the stations in gym with the injured hand.
so funny sia. we walk to the venue for the briefing and macham we don't belong to np. we search for block 73 and after that had a difficult time searching for the room until we saw some juniors walking to that room then we act blur, follow them there. muahaha! there wasn't quite a lot of juniors who attended the briefing today. well, maybe they are busy with some stuffs. just hope next friday's briefing will have full attendance since it's the showing of proposal for the different positions they wish to take up.
being appointed as the caretakers with brian for this caps hotel. hope can make the caps a successful and enjoyable one like last year.
sianz. tomorrow working again! hope i don't end up doing maid stuffs if not i will scream heaven scream earth. hehe...
--- work is a torture!!! ---
my music my style
11:29 PM
Tuesday, June 20, 2006
i swear i finally see for myself what's maggie's (new manager) true colour is!
late for work today and i guess i brought it upon myself. damm! i arrive just on time for briefing and after briefing alfred told me to find him to take cashbox and maggie said don't need. she wants me to do some housekeeping matters cause store visit is coming. guess what she ask me to do? clean the ceiling cause under the air con got those black patches. KAOZ! just imagine i do my hair so nice and early in the morning ask me do such stuffs. yucks. as i clean, all the dust like particles dropping on me, my hair, my t-shirt. *argh*
in the end, i follow bee choo's advice. take the broom to sweep faster. lolx! luckily maggie inside office, if not i sure kanna scolding. later on i went in and told her i'm done and she was shock how come i can finish it so fast. she want me to do more things but long queue already. phew! in the end, i went to do cashier. however not long after that, teng shien ask me go deliever goods to a customer opposite st anne's church. sianz! i took the lrt and i wasn't so familiar with the route and the lrt went the wrong direction as what was stated on the board. later on, i realise that i must watch the annoucement cause although same platform but different routes. damm. how spastic can i be. walk back to popular after delivering the goods. it's like drizzling at that time.
i felt so tired after that and wanted to request to go home early but i feel bad pang seh-ing bee choo. moodless for the rest of the day. in the late afternoon, i finish clearing a queue of customers and was stone-ing for a while. just then maggie came to the front and saw that my counter got no people and she said "so free ar? i can't stand people with nothing to do". wth?!? luckily got bee choo help me shoot her say i just got time to breathe air. phew.
i think i agree with bee choo's observation. maggie doesn't like part timers. she only make us do more and more work. likewise, yvonne (ass. manager) like part timers more. she can joke with us and hang out with our clicks. too bad she's going on maternity leave soon i think?
after today, i swear to myself that i shall be more hardworking in finding new jobs. i shouldn't continue to stay in popular and let her torture me with so much chores. its like i'm working as a maid to popular, cleaning the store. tall so what? always find me then tell me cause i'm tall, easier to do things. what crap! you mean short people get off without having to do anything? nonsense!
luckily off tomorrow. i hate work so much now. i miss hoon sung. where's him? he's the best manager so far i came across. maybe guys are better. they are not so calculative as womans. just imagine asking a $5 paid hourly part timer to clean this and that. what a difficult money to earn.
alright, i know i shouldn't continue complaining. it only shows how pampered am i. heez. i'm not pamper ok? i just don't like being order around to do things. if i want to do, i will do it willingly!
liwei ask me something on the way home and i thought of it while bathing.
morning training today. i led the training cause jeremy wasn't there. did gym and campus run. woot. not really shiong but very tired already. haha. 3 juniors came down today. sin teck, alvin and yang. great improvement from last monday's training ya? seems like juniors don't like to come for land training. they rather go sea training on tuesday. pengz!
after training went west mall for movie with brian, samuel, jeremy and weizheng. we watch "silent hill".
this is definitely a nice movie. 4 stars out of 5 if i should give it. it's a thriller and a bit of horror? well, the movie won't make you bored cause you will be stuck in your seat wondering what will happen next. however what's bad is the ending. so ARGH!!! well, go watch it and you will curse the director for ending it like that.
ate ice cream at swensen after movie and the chocolate ice cream damm sweet. duhz. a bit not worth that money. i think earthquake is still the best so far! i shall save up to eat that. it would be so shiok to eat the whole giant earthquake by myself. muahaha. only thing after eating that, i would have to run campus again and again to lose all the fats.
tomorrow back to work again. sian-ness! well, what to do? money don't fall from the sky. if it does, you will see me running all my life to get as much money as i can. haha!
--- i want to go Great Singapore Sales shopping!!! ---
my music my style
9:02 PM
Sunday, June 18, 2006
CAB CAB CAB!!!
this morning i take cab down again for training. i was awake at 6am but i decide to sleep a while more and i end up waking up at 7am. DOTZ. i actually had a dream during the 1 hour. i dreamt that one day i went down kallang for sea training and was walking towards sdba and on the way there, i saw that there were actually many stalls. it's like a pasar malam on sea. some stalls were like floating on the sea selling things and there were a lot of people. so cool right the idea of pasar malam in sea? customers can actually take boat around all the different stalls to shop. haha! what a nice dream i had. too bad i had to wake up.
didn't have the motivation to train cause i'm so tired. i kind of use all my strength for the first 2 sprints then the rest all i anyhow paddle. cher is smart! he can see that everyone of us didn't have the mood to paddle today so he ask us row long distance. i was behind and he scolded me "你的strokes乱七八糟啊!". oops. i was damm tired until i don't have the mood to do proper strokes already.
ate lunch at kfc. 6 of us while the rest went foodcourt. we ate buddy meal cause just right in pairs. clemence so poor thing. lex wanted to make him "housekeeper" position to pour drinks for all our meetings. macham like maid sia. lolx!
went home straight after lunch cause i want to sleep. so tired! i need more sleep.
when is jolin's mv vcd or dvd of her 舞娘 album coming out? i want to buy! well, here's the next latest mv of her last track of the album "开场白 The Prologue". well, whether is it true that this song is about her and jay, you shall decide after watching for yourself.
for now, i think this song best suits my mood.
--- 我們珍惜這一刻 放下累積的負荷，卸下沉默 學會了，不保留 ---
my music my style
9:51 PM
17 June 2006 (Sat)
3 days of working straight. *faints*
finally off tomorrow for training. yesterday was so-so. rotting behind at counter 3 and not many people. maggie (manager) was off so never kanna call out to help out since so many staffs also. in the end i sit there sing song cause the speaker behind louder. right on top of me! in the afternoon after i ate lunch, i sat at my counter until want to fall asleep cause so full then wendy saw me dozing off and laugh. *malu* easy money to earn but so boring, just imagine sitting down there. might as well give me a bed and sleep, more better.
ate lunch and gek choo was asking me about vickie's stuffs, that i really want to give up is it. well, everything is over so whatever it is, just leave it as a fact. it would never be change.
shock that she told her mum about us and what happened but i'm glad she got someone to pour out all her feelings too. at least she will feel better and move on after that.
got calls at night while i was working cause the juniors were asking me how come nobody turn up at the caps briefing. later on at night, they all flood the tagboard complaining of how they were being "pang seh". well, hope they can understand lex and alfred reasons for not being able to turn up as promise. just be big hearted and treat everything as something we can improve on. it doesn't feel good to be stood up but it was really due to some unforseen cicumstances.
today morning and afternoon was easy work cause not many people. maybe everybody slept until very late since now is the soccer fever. me and desmond were slacking in the receiving room after lunch watch alfred clear the room and alfred happen to ask what happened between me and her. being the straight forward me, i just said "我们分了!" and he was shock and ask why. i just said like that means like that, and he say next time when he's free, fill in more with details. pengz!
desmond scolded me for telling alfred cause he say telling alfred means the whole popular will know soon. sorry vickie! i know you didn't want anyone to know other than our own group of friends working there cause it isn't something so proud to go around telling others. well, if you don't wish to answer their questions, then just walk off. anyway this is our own private life.
glad to see on nacc tagboard that juniors are forgivable peeps! well, everybody make mistakes. it's through mistakes that people learn to become even better person right? thanks juniors!
damm tired from work. hope it would not affect training. gonna sleep early to rest well. gdnite everyone!
my music my style
12:00 AM
Thursday, June 15, 2006
happy birthday vickie!
back to work today. first thing is katty ask me vickie never work ar? duhz. i feel so weird. later on more and more people ask about vickie. lunch period was a torture cause i bought back to eat and lucy ate the same time as me.
she was talking about her brothers going overseas to further their studies and one of her brother's friend eat bread everyday just because that guy wants to save up money to buy a soft toy for his gf. she remark that her brother say how stupid his friend was cause what if do so many things for the girl and then end up breaking. then lucy ask me am i attached? and i say no and she was like giving me that kind of don't believe face. i ask why and she say nothing lah.
haiz, maybe the workplace people don't know that we've broken up so i can't blame them. what i just don't like is that they keep on asking me about her. in the end i told myself to see in a different view. maybe as friends also can right.
working continuously tomorrow and even saturday. shit! i would feel damm sick working. i should have requested for alternate days. forget it, i should endure for the sake of money!
my leg is starting to let me feel that it's being neglected. so pain. now i can't even bend straight. i must slowly bend straight. pengz. hope it don't get infection. i just went to apply medicine on it cause i realise i shouldn't be that stubborn. heez.
alright, nothing else. worklife is just so boring...
my music my style
11:51 PM
Wednesday, June 14, 2006
trip to pulau ubin today. went there with my IS group members to recce the place for the games on the actual day. yee peng didn't join us cause she was sick. reach there after eating at the changi hawker centre there. first time i sit bumboat over to the island.
went to rent bicycles and cycle cause tsz kin (leader) say if walk, it will take probably the whole day. he also say that there will be a lot of bumpy roads and slopes so he ask who can't cycle really well and hmm, i got no choice but to own up that i only learn cycling like once and never really practice it after that. heez. in the end he and me ride double kind of bicycle. lolx! so malu.
ride for a while out and argh! don't know why but we just lost control and the bicycle threw us off to the ground. my right leg was scratch and bleed. tsz kin was shock and ask me ok or not. i told him i was fine cause i really didn't feel any pain at all. maybe this pain is nothing compare to the pain which i just went through. sighz.
she send me the 2nd time and ask whether i want to patch up or not. i know that being a strong character girl, she has already lower down herself to ask me over and over again. i thought it through during the night land training after alfred and clemence gave me advice and i decide that i would still stand strong on my decision. their words were neutral and alfred said "just make sure you don't regret your decision". well, i guess i won't regret on my decision cause i've lost confidence in our future if we still get back together so i would rather hurt her now then in the future.
cab down from boon keng station again. gosh! i must stop myself from taking cab anymore. it's like everyday go where also cab down. *big hole in pocket*
waited for quite a while for the juniors to come and phew! the number of people who turn up today still have 9. jeremy said he might be late so yah, got to lead the training. my 1st time leading training. see! my virgin like that gave to juniors already. wahaha! sounds so wrong.
initially wanted them to do 2 rounds of triangle but after 1st round, saw that a lot of them can't paddle straight and was going way zig-zag so i ask them to beach up at the toilet there and correct them strokes. after that paddle to suspension bridge construction and turn back to launching point cause the sky was kinda dark and about to rain already.
took k2 back with ethan and wah, i feel so stable today. wee!
anyway, hope i'm not so bad today. made them do 100 push ups after training as punishments cause bang my boat and paddles. well, it has already been decrease already from 150. heez.
seeing how positive thinking are they during debrief, i'm glad to have them as my juniors. training might be tiring but at the end of the day, it's still the fun that counts right? thanks to my helper today, brian, ethan, serene and jeremy. without you all, i think i would not have the confidence to go ahead and do the things which i want. thanks a lot!
so tired from the many days of trainings since sunday. well, must endure! more trainings means more strength and endurance to last longer. yeah~
tomorrow going pulau ubin to recce the place with my events management group. hope i can rush back to school on time for land training at night. sian! everyday must wake up so early. i miss my bed. it has been a long time since i accompany my bed for long. muahaha. LAME.
early in the morning when i wake up, it's raining and so cold. got a feeling of give training a miss but nahz!
sea training after like missing last week's cause of mugging for common test. training was tough, maybe because of rest period. lots of sprintings after learning strokes and i felt so tired today. told myself to vent out my unhappiness in the first few sprints but towards the last few, i lost concentration and focus. sianz. well, the nyjc guy is fast with his brasca IV. his reps is like kaoz. shooting as fast as a maching gun and can't believe that he's only a year 1. orh. so disgrace. only alfred manage to beat him on the last round cause he can't swallow down the pain of losing to him. haha! me and samuel was like so tired towards the last part already.
rush off to bath with collin at the toilet beside scf. took cab down to shenton way partyworld for my m5 concept gathering event there and it started pouring heavily after i reach there. the taxi driver uncle was humorous also. he drove pass suntec there and was waiting for the traffic then he ask me which of the 2 buildings in front is the highest. then he say tall until the clouds can cover the top of the building. the thing started quite late cause a lot of people were late also. damm! i should not have took cab down but to slowly take my own sweet time to go there. well, saw a lot of models and all so good looking. gosh! make me so malu of myself by calling myself a future runaway model? *faints*
left there in the midst of the event cause i'm running late for work. got to take over junxiang for counter cause he going chalet. cab down from shenton way and strange to say, this taxi driver starting chatting with me too. he ask me got watch yesterday's night world cup or not. o_O me not soccer fans! oops.
well, work is good cause only a few hours. hate working for the whole day cause it's like kind of sickening to do cashiering for 8 hours? maggie is alright i think. maybe i'm still use to the way hoon sung does things. it's like much more what we guys will normally do. ha!
walk home with vickie cause she said got things to talk to me. as we were walking home, she ask questions which seems like so many to me and i started to think more than saying it out. the walk might seem a long one but how i wish it will not end so fast. sorry i didn't give you the reply you wanted eventually. i can sense your disappointment and as i walk off, my eyes suddenly fill itself with tears and i couldn't control it.
--- 你那么爱她 为什么不把她留下 为什么不说心里话 你深爱她 这是每个人都知道啊 ---
12 June 2006 (Mon)
land training today. i wake up late cause my back ache so much. after much dilly-dallying i manage to leave the house at 9.30am and it's like confirm late. i took bus to thomson road and cab down school. duhz! in the end, not everybody reach. only serene waiting. shucks! wasted my cab fee. 7 bucks. anyway the uncle count cheap cause i was telling him to stop at the back gate but he scare kanna caught then u-turn one big round back to school again. *faints*
waited at the clubhouse until 11am and only 1 junior came. it's alvin. gosh. where are the rest of the juniors?!? 200 push ups, gym and ran campus under the hot weather. gym endurance was so tired. maybe we haven't be doing endurance. partner with liang cheng and it's great. he's a joker with a cartoon face. haha! even geraldine agrees.
slack at the clubhouse for a while before heading for a bath and then sim foodcourt for lunch. chatted for quite a while there about lots of things and the way liang cheng jokes make us all laugh. it seems like so long since we last get together to bond.
the day was great. tomorrow sea training for juniors. hope there will be more of them turning up. don't because of holidays then give yourself a break ok? hope to see you all worx.
--- 我想试着渐渐的不在想着你, 我做得到吗? ---
my music my style
12:02 AM
Saturday, June 10, 2006
marina square kbox with popular colleagues today.
it's kbox, my favourite! but i didn't enjoy it today not because of marina square bad service (k student from 2pm-7pm but they give us 2pm-5pm cause a lot of people) but because i wasn't feeling good after what all just happened so far. i don't know why but today all the slow songs that everyone sing, the lyrics just hit me hard and make me think more. especially when i heard "jolin - 我要的選擇", "cyndi - you are my only love" and "徐婕儿 - 没有你的每一天", i almost break down. thank god the kbox session was until 5pm instead of 7pm if not i would not be able to contain my feelings.
thanks junxiang for choosing the song "柯有伦 - 零". at least it make me feel so much better after screaming out the song.
i couldn't help but notice that she wasn't feeling good either. is my heart still feeling her every feeling or am i just too sensitive? come on chinchong! you got to move on and don't brood over it anymore!!! *slap slap*
i felt really bad to spoil their mood when zack suggested to watch CARS for movie after kbox. i don't really have the mood to watch cartoon and don't felt like staying long so i said i would go home if they watch.
junxiang recommended explanade for dinner and so we went there. the food is okok but i think it's more for the sea view. so nice to have your meal with such a pretty scenery. that's why i promise to buy a cottage near a sea in future in australia or korea. it started drizzling after we begin to eat and thanks to vickie for holding the umbrella to cover us, we manage to eat without raindrops in our food? haha.
went into explanade for walk cause zack said he had never been inside at all. *faints* well, can't blame him. he's mostly working like everyday, not like us students, got so much time to explore the new happenings of singapore. the top view of explanade was splendid. how i wish i can spend my time over there. however seeing couples holding hands and couples walking together, i began to feel sour again.
share cab home with junxiang, vickie and zack. damm! got additional charge of $2 cause peak hour? well, heck care. just so tired and sick of waiting for buses. it's my habit to fall asleep so on the way back i fell asleep. i don't know which moment i wake up to see her lying her head on me but i didn't even bother but i just continue sleeping.
alighted at compass point and walk home. i wanted to see her home but junxiang said he will so i went home. on my way home, i thought to myself "i'm not her anyone anymore so i should not be worrying about her everything". perhaps i have not got use to the new life of mine. haiz...
blogspot was down again yesterday night. *pui* it always break down during the period from 11.30pm-12am when i try to log in. anyway i was practically slacking at home yesterday trying to find new blogskins cause my blog fans complain about the yellow wordings to difficult to read. heez.
well today i slept until 12+ and wake up so unwillingly to eat my breakfast cum lunch. mcdonald breakfast meal. wee! my favourite. they just got the nice smell unlike the afternoon meal. eat until so sian already.
reach school early and chatted with shi hua and karen under the shelters of our newly extended bus stop. so pretty and high class! i'm so proud of ngee ann! *wee o wee*
shi hua ask me about the model thingy she read on my blog and say next time famous already got fan club she want to be my manager collect fees from my fans. faints~ wait till i become famous. i don't want to be model for my whole life also. i want to fufill my dream to become a singer!
ooad 5% ca test was kaoz. so difficult the activity diagram and mr andrew tan still say he will try to make it simple cause the previous ca was so difficult. omg! since his simple is so difficult to us, then set the most difficult test that seems to him next time. maybe we will find it damm easy? lolx. Just Kidding!!!
went for my 1st lesson at m5 concept and i got there early even though i went to eat dinner first. so nervous cause my teacher richard there already sitting at the table waiting for me when i got there. duhz. anyway he made me feel really comfortable singing out in his class. the techniques he taught about breathing and "yao zhi" is so interesting.
sang liang jing ru's "分手快乐" as a starting song. did warm up and richard say my mouth never open wide and my voice all within my mouth. so true! i always went lower key and he ask me sing along to match his note. oops.
luckily he never ask me sing the other piece by nicholas tze "香水" cause so difficult. the way he sang it and i never listen before his songs. gosh! next lesson richard is going to make me sing. DEAD! i'm going to practice it first before he skins me alive.
wee! going marina square kbox tomorrow with popular colleagues. i miss kbox like hell! how nice if anyone is going to buy the whole system and install it in my house. *dreaming*
a sigh of relief! i finish the 2 most horrible modules today. bioinformatics and lan. now i can pamper myself by slacking cause my friday paper is ooad (java) and it's like only only ca weightage. 5%. chey! hehe.
lan was real difficult and bioinformatics i hope can pass it. well. enjoy first then cry for results. i'm tired from everything and i need a break.
m5 concept called me or rather my teacher in charge of teaching me modelling called me in school to tell me that he'll be starting my first lesson this friday instead of sunday cause sunday they got an event at shenton way. all members are invited so that's me inclusive and can bring 3 friends along. the media will be appearing also. gosh! my teacher ask me go experience the gathering and make new friends of the same industry. o_O
i'm beginning to realise that m5 concept is an established and reliable company cause they dare to do promotions so yah, i'll tell my mama all about it tomorrow and hopes she approves of me going modelling. *cross fingers*
well, this sunday i got cher's training so i might need to leave early cause the thing start at 2pm-4pm. shit! after that rush down to work. i can forsee i'll rush like a busy bee this sunday. shucks. how am i going to bring so many clothes in my bag. it's like training, gathering and work!
hmm, i know my reply to your email isn't something you wish for. sorry for everything.
--- 也许这一生我们只是注定做情人，而不是一身中在互相的身边守护着的对方 ---
my music my style
11:59 PM
Tuesday, June 06, 2006
sad to say. i had to mug like the whole of today cause tomorrow got 2 papers. now i don't even dare sign in msn for fear that i'll start talking non-stop if i'm online. sianz.
alright, nothing else to say already.
here's a mtv for you to enjoy. it's Jolin - Mr. Q in her latest album "Dacing Diva". see the way she act in the mv is like gosh. so wild! flirt with edison until *roll eyes*
someone is going to say i'm dripping saliva again right roslind? heez.
my music my style
11:17 PM
5 June 2006 (Mon)
blogspot was down when i feel like blogging. *sigh*
i couldn't slept well last night after what all happened. i can't deny the fact that i cried and cried. it might seem sissy or girlish but other than crying out, i didn't know how to pour out my feelings. liwei ask me to tell desmond about what happened and he ended up calling my home when i refuse to answer his call. thanks desmond for your advice on everything although i seem so quiet over on the phone. i'm glad that you said if you don't understand me, you would have hang up.
thanks everybody for everything. clemence, serene, zack, liwei, junxiang, desmond, roslind, si bao, everyone if i miss you all out. i guess both parties need time to get over what just happened. sorry if i'm not myself this few days.
meet my classmates at the canteen today before going for database paper. now meiteng and karen quarrel because they went out to study yesterday and meiteng keep on playing so karen scolded her real bad and ask her to wake up. haiz. hope they'll be ok soon. come on, why is everybody so down? haiz.
database paper was bad. well, what's done is done. i just hope what yu bing said was true, that mrs nittia, our mentor can change away the database lecturer if we request to. i want to change definitely! if not i can't imagine how am i going to graduate within 3 years with that old hag teaching.
i dislike my behaviour in front of my classmates today. i don't want them to know about what happened cause i'm scare i will break down. i can't imagine i have to force myself to laugh when in my heart, i'm not feeling ok. i hate it.
vickie ask me one long time whether is this what i want and i didn't salvage it. maybe i will regret over everything but i shall leave it as it is. anyway i msg the m5concept guy and told him that i might withdraw from the modelling package. true as it might be a step closer to my dream, i guess i shall ask my parents for consent first before deciding whether to go for it or not.
well, life still has to go on.
i shall promise myself to be happy and not dwell on my unhappiness. 我要快乐!
my music my style
12:01 PM
Sunday, June 04, 2006
everything came to an end just not long ago.
it's over with me and her.
i hate myself for not salvaging it but i knew that she would be hurt if everything drags on. besides sorry, i guess there's no other word i can use to lighten the hurt i've created on you.
maybe we are different persons, playing different keys all the times. maybe we shouldn't have began that time. maybe i should have try to understand you more. lots of maybe's but what's the use of saying maybe's now if everything had turned out this way.
it's certainly not i want. i know she'll be hurt terribly but i guess she'll be able to pick herself up if we end now. call me selfish, bastard, idiot whatever you want but i don't want her to be hurt because of me. i can't deny the fact that i still love her as much as ever. that's why i chose to cut short her pain.
i'm really apologetic for everything...
i'll never forget the moments we're together cause it's the happy moments with you.
--- 希望这是 最后一次 向最爱说再见 也希望下个永远 会永远 在我身边 ---
my music my style
8:58 PM
如果说我不会珍惜, then how you know that i didn't treasure it?
times and again i had made you get upset over me until you realise that the tears you cried for me is getting lesser and lesser until you are numb over my doings already. you said i've changed. changed for the worst but humans do change as time goes by. i know that i've made you feel tired over everything and you said you would not choose to end with me this time round cause you treasure me.
i may be immature, arrogant, ignorant as what you think but i don't think i'm that. maybe you have not understand me well all along. i know i shouldn't acted rashly by signing up but what's done is done. maybe when i really get cheated, then i will realise that all the comments from my friends around me are real. you know that when one is engross in something, he might not realise the dangers until he gets bite.
"明星梦" who doesn't have? but if one doesn't go ahead and pursue it, how do others succeed then? everybody will only remain as he or she is.
"想远". i know it's impossible to do it for life but is it possible to do it at least for now?
*sigh*
perhaps i've taken the wrong step this time round...
--- regrets can only be regrets if i fail to learn from it and stand up again ---
my music my style
3:24 PM
Saturday, June 03, 2006
i went for the "model of tomorrow 2006" audition today as featured in teens and teenage magazine just to accompany vincent cause he want to join so much but i guess i may have done the wrong thing by accompanying him today. *sighs*
i just want to experience something new cause i join before singing auditions but not modelling kind. while sitting outside waiting for our turn, they play this "zhu da" of this new singer from their company who is releasing his album. he's just 18 or 19 this year? not bad his song. heard that he's a model until his singing teacher ask him interested in singing or not.
when it was my turn, the 3 judges ask me to intro about myself and talk more. after that he ask me walk and turn then pose. DIAOZ. of cause i was so stiff when walking cause it's like walk 2 steps then must turn. so weird! oh yah, the judges ask me to sing cause i say my dream is to become a singer. lolx! the room echo is so nice. aww! however after that, one of the judge ask me to go outside and find the guy standing beside another guy sitting at the computer table outside.
i thought i'll get a real bad comment cause of my stiffness when walking but the guy, zul said that his boss (guy sitting at the computer table) is actually interested in asking me join his company cause he sees that my height can go on runaway shows. he said that rather than wait for the results of the audition to be out, which he is not sure of my results, he would rather me sign up their modelling package now so that he can start to groom me and give me assignments. i thought through and was quite interested to try out how it feels but it's the money factor but he says that he would give me a student package and work out an instalment plan so that i can clear the sum. he said that i can also pay more if i get assignments. in the end i sign up for it.
went work and told dear, desmond and liwei about it. dear was extremely piss off by me. liwei and desmond choose not to side with me this time round cause they felt that i should at least tell my dear before i do anything. i told liwei that in my opinion i sign up for it cause i want to pursue my dreams. liwei ask me choose fame or "her" and i said that both is important but i can't simply give up a rare opportunity for a woman? she said correct but at least next time i should inform her about it. she fear of many things, that it's complicated in the modelling world etc.
hereby i should really admit that i'm at fault for not tellling my dear. i know i always act without telling anybody and sorry i'll change ok? maybe that's just me. i told liwei that maybe my dear find me "diao er lang dang" which she laugh and say i realise myself also ar but i'm not. i know what am i doing. besides i have check up m5 concept company and it's an established company so yah, just wait till everything is done then you all shall believe whether i'm being cheated really or it's true that they really want me. what's done is done. next time i will ask people before i do anything ok? i promise. hmm, dear, i know you still can't accept the fact that i signed the package and agreed on modelling jobs but really, i want to give it a try so i hope that you can understand and support me.
now my parents side, i don't know how to tell them about the modelling thing. it's either they object to me doing such exposure stuffs or it's them supporting me. well, i guess i'll just wait for the letter for the company to be send to my house and tell them about it when they ask.
sighs. have i done something wrong this time? i thought i will feel happy that i'm being recognise but nahz, i don't feel it. i felt that i'm just dreaming. maybe desmond is right, i'm not good looking so what makes me think they are really sincere in grooming me. perhaps i'm just day dreaming and i have not wake up. it's time to reflect upon myself i guess.
--- opportunities come and go. how sure am i that it really came knocking on me this time? ---
my music my style
11:56 PM
Friday, June 02, 2006
sometimes human heart is difficult to understand. is the person acting or it's just who he is. does position really that matter to you? i know that it feels great to be on the top. who doesn't want? but if you do all kinds of despicable stuffs to ensure that you remain on top, then don't you feel that you did not win honourably? i despise you seriously.
your "close friends" might not feel it but i can say i feel it. i'm not sensitive but i'm just allergic to minor stuffs changing around me, that is why i felt it. perhaps time will reveal everything but i just hope it is not the way which i really thought it is. i hope i'm wrong on my prediction but meanwhile i'm sorry to say that i can't act as if nothing has happened. i would rather warn your "close friends" then let them be blind when they are being stabbed on the back. they can choose to say that i'm over reacting. it's up to them.
yeah! completed database project finally. *phew*
now common test is drawing near and i'm so afraid i will not do well for it. i don't want to end up like last semester worry over my final results. mug hard chinchong! you got to force yourself to study even though you hate books!!!
went to library to study with the canoe peeps today and ended up talking about band, 9pm show and lots of stuffs. lolx. shit. i guess i'm just so talkative cause i hate mugging. gosh. just kill me.
dear sounds so free! she says she is looking forward to june 15 outing. i also wish for that day but how to clear the exams week first? so stress. sighs.
i shall study hard.
i promise myself...
my music my style
10:53 PM
Thursday, June 01, 2006
sleepy day. i'm tired! pimples popping out on my face already. eek. *stress!*
bioinformatics test today was horrible. i did wrongly 2 mcq questions out of 3. the dotted diagram i think drawn so so only. the global alignment thing i put wrongly the values but i got the correct answer. o_O how genius am i?!?
database test got only 4 questions. 10 marks, 10 marks, 10 marks and 20 marks. the "lao nu ren" lecturer lost her voice today. our curse on her taking MC again nearly succeeded! argh. what's worst is that she actually mark on the spot the test while we were doing practical. she even resort to showing everybody's mark on the screen. ARGH!!! *qi daooooo...*
i got 22/50 and she went to convert to 100 which is 44. SHIT! that means i got to score even more marks next time to cover back my marks. sighs. but without her teaching us, how am i going to do well next time? i just don't understand how come so many of my classmates can auto understand without her teaching. maybe i'm just too dumb for database. sighs again.
going back to school tomorrow to finish up database project cause saturday is deadline and where is MARC?!? he can actually be missing when every single of us send sms-es out to him and tell him the meeting time and venue. gosh. what's this world becoming to? must be like me so hardworking, tomorrow no school also go back school finish up project. think i'll just stay in school and mug with the canoeist until 6+pm then go home watch 9pm show since i'm in school. don't waste time travelling back and forth.
alright. gonna go and do my stuffs already. mug hard people.
don't ever let me catch you slacking! *grins*
my music my style
10:50 PM
Only Me
Duncan Chew
12/09/1987
Virgo
Info Comm Tech
Canoe Sprinting
Wishes
*Clothes accessories
*Crumpler - Quarfie size
*DS Lite (Blue)
*Earphone
*White shorts, white jeans
*Cardigan, Vest, t-shirts
*Levis Signature jeans
*Oakley shades
*Powerboat license
*Puma jacket Running shoes S.H.E - Play album
*Olympus/Lumix Camera
*MP4/Zen Stone 2GB Mini memory stick for k800i
There's a place that you will always know
It is where your heart knows it's home
And if you need to run from trouble or despair
It is where to go
Run back home
I went faraway to see the world alone
To places in my dreams
But the best dreams came when I was dreaming them at home
Every bird sees the sky as its home
To just fly and be free is a joy
Each night I have dreamt of being free to fly
But I've always known
The sky is not home
I went far away to see the world alone
To places in my dreams
But the best dream came
When I was dreaming them at home
The best dreams came
When I was dreaming them at home
Back Home
this is definitely a nice movie. 4 stars out of 5 if i should give it. it's a thriller and a bit of horror? well, the movie won't make you bored cause you will be stuck in your seat wondering what will happen next. however what's bad is the ending. so ARGH!!! well, go watch it and you will curse the director for ending it like that.
i just want to experience something new cause i join before singing auditions but not modelling kind. while sitting outside waiting for our turn, they play this "zhu da" of this new singer from their company who is releasing his album. he's just 18 or 19 this year? not bad his song. heard that he's a model until his singing teacher ask him interested in singing or not. 
when it was my turn, the 3 judges ask me to intro about myself and talk more. after that he ask me walk and turn then pose. DIAOZ. of cause i was so stiff when walking cause it's like walk 2 steps then must turn. so weird! oh yah, the judges ask me to sing cause i say my dream is to become a singer. lolx! the room echo is so nice. aww! however after that, one of the judge ask me to go outside and find the guy standing beside another guy sitting at the computer table outside.